In honor of April being the month of the Military Child, some of my own. We worry sometimes if raising military brats is really what we want to do. My husband signed up for this life. I agreed with him and had some idea of what I was signing up for. C and R, had no say in this life. Like all military kids it was chosen for them.
C asked a few weeks ago where she was originally from. Likely me and her father were mentioning such about ourselves. We would both say we are originally from Oklahoma, as it’s where we both spent much of our childhoods (or all of it in my case). Poor C though, she was born in Japan, has lived in California and now in Washington and there are likely many more places and states she’ll live in before she is no longer a military child. “Where are you from?” is always going to perplex her.
She was born in Misawa, Japan, on a US air base although she doesn’t remember anything about Japan. Her passport, which she got at 2 ½ months old, says she was born in Japan, as a US citizen. Hopefully when she has to explain that on every job application for the rest of her life she’ll think it’s cool, not a hassle. Someday we can hopefully take a trip back to Japan and show her the country she was born in and share with her all that we love about Japan.
She remembers the white house on Monterey in California. It was the first home she remembers, and hopefully she doesn’t lose that memory. We now live in a gray house in Washington. Hopefully she remembers it too after we move, her room already painted pink and purple, the sloped driveway she could run down, the yard full of dandelions. She does not remember her first move at 19 months. We do, how we took away all her things for months, took away all the places and people she had ever known, how she clung to her paci and few toys we packed., how it was Christmas in June when we got all her toys back. She remembers our move last fall, her second, when she got a new house, new town, new school and new baby brother. Somehow that move did not break her so much that when I mentioned the other day we are moving again she welcomed the adventure.
R was born in a state he likely will not turn one in, a state he may never live in again. C very likely will end up having lived in 5 places in 6 1/2 years, and gone to 5 preschools and schools by 1st grade. R may end up having lived in three places before his third birthday. Hopefully someday having seen so much of the states will benefit them more than the stress of all the moves.
There have been times that it’s heartbreaking. Poor C during the last move when we were still living in yet another hotel room and waiting to move into our new house, sadly said she wanted to go home, home to the white house on Monterey. And all I could do was wrap her in a hug and tell her that part of me wanted that too, to go back to what I had learned and knew I liked. I also said we were getting a new house, new friends, a new school, and a new adventure. That we would make all of that what we know and enjoy, for a little while, always for just a little while.
Right now we are dealing with Daddy being gone, again. R is too young to care yet. For C, she’s full of emotions and anxieties about it. We are not a complete family of four without him, and yet for a time our family has to exist and function as three. It’s a lot for a four year old to really understand, why he is gone, how much he really does love us when he’d gone, and how much he terribly terribly misses us.
My military kids will have to learn to be resilient. Able to not know what the future might bring and deal with their circumstances whether they like them or not. In the end learn to be flexible enough to handle whatever life throws at them.
They will have to be resolute. With an ability to make new friends and embrace new situations and places. They will have to learn that finding joy and embracing positives will help them deal. They will hopefully be determined that in the end they will make their new place home.
They will have to be relentless. With the means to live out of a suitcase if needed for a time. Hardened, sadly, by the moves and the changes and the time away from dad. Hopefully strong enough nothing in life will beat them down.
So many kids like my own, little souls with big emotions, serve in their own ways. They will have a unique childhood and not the easiest one. I hope that this life gains them friends, both ours and their own, around the country and the world. I hope they keep the adventure and joy in seeing new places, that they come away with an appreciation for differences and similarities around the country. I suppose most of all I hope that when they are older and understand more they don’t look back on their childhood’s hardships but instead have pride for their part in making our country safer.